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Monday, 26 May 2008

  • It's been so hard to live these days, hate the procedure of making decisions, hate the procedure of thinking of the future. I afraid I will regret my first choice, I frighten that it may not the things I want, I fear I won't fulfill my real dream. Now, after weeks and weeks of thoughts and decisions making, it's time to tell the friends and family that I am gonig to University of Toronto, St George Campus in downtown for Life Science programme. As I koe, it's not a bad program and God offers me a chance to go. In the beginning I kept thinking of Western Ontario. It is such a nice place and a nice town for studying, and friends are there. Food and Nutrition is the one I have applied for in Western, but it seems it is not the best career I can get through it. Transferring from UofW to other schools may be a bit difficult according to Dr. Gouda, hence, UT will be my choice. In UT, I can go for pharmacy later in the year or go for dental or even biochem and biotech, which are also my dreams here in Canada. In Canada, we have a large variety of career options even taking pure science, we can do research or whatever we want. This is why I have skipped from my Commerce idea to my Science Life. In my entire life, science has occupied most of the time, and now it's time to extend it. I cannot say that I am a guy who is reli reli good in science, but what I have is interest, especially when I reach here in Bronte, Dr. Ummat has done lots of exploration for me, he always said I am a star, though I koe i'm not. But anyways, it's him who encourages me to continue my studies in science field. "It's what U should do, Jenkin." Thx for all the help from everyone else in the skool and on the internet. Thx for everyone's advice, thx for telling the importance and the advantages of continuing the study in the field. Thx for advising me to go western, though it doesn't come true. Thx parents for encouraging me to go UT, so does Dr. Gouda. You will become my hero one day, maybe 10 years later I will forget how I go UT for Life Science, but I will never forget those who are pushing me at the back, and those who are helping me all the time. Thx for the advice from Lingling, it's true and worthy. Thx, Martin and Timtim, I will never forget the best friends here in Bronte.

    Now 4 of us are having different pathway to go, let us see the light in front of our bright future. Martin, gonig for Ottawa for Engineering, koeing that it's so far away and we will definitely have less opportunities to see each other, still I will never forget the time when we are playing winning in 413, eating McDonald and Burger King, kicking and killing all the flowers at the backyard, and your boston cream.
    Timtim, my brother here, u said i changed u ,but u also changed me. Waterloo is a cool place for your future in hk, it's always a good Maths school. U are the best friend of mine who is smart but never study, I enjoy hanging wid these kinda of people coz  I'm lazy also. Never forget the pacific mall trip, the dixie trip, all the things we do together in the holidays. Is me who turn you into a guy who play winning, is you who ask me to play basketball. We will never koe how come we have the same drum teacher, we will never koe how come u will live so close to me. Good Luck, dude!
    Elaine, speechless, nothing to say, rock on dude!

Wednesday, 07 May 2008

  • When memories were coming through my mind again and again in the day, my mood seems to be turning down, depressed and missing. Missing everything, the days and the talks, the conversations and the lunches, the work and the time together. Never regret, never seems bad, coz worth it. Sadness covers the land and the ocean, the single tree and every tiny creature. Every breath that we breathe is filled with cyanide, every footprint is covered with sand and mud, every single step is difficult. No mood for exams and no mood for chatting, no mood for shopping and no mood for food and drinks. Again thinking of getting self drunk and dizzy, useless. No wine anymore, get rid of any single idea of it, as promised. Exams, not bad, as spent so much time on it. It drove me crazy, it drove me mad.  What's for, haven't been like this before. Maybe becoz of that stress it makes me think of you and the past. It was a sad day, a bad day, simply lousy. In the evening the sun seems to shine again on my face, friends are helpful and i am excited by the news. Thx God for it, but still, i've been missing ya, and i've been loving.

Sunday, 27 April 2008

  • People asked, why do you have to write such misleading stuffs in the blog. Okay then, let me write something simple but touching in this simple entry, once only.
    Thx for all the people saying hapi Bday to me, plz excuse me if I counted someone left behind.
    24th: Mother
    25th: Father, YeungWaiHung, Jay, Tommy, Andy, Kevin,
    26th, 12am: Tim, Chris, Martin, Sarah, Elaine, Kelly, Irene
    26th: TimLee, KevinWong, Kevin, Rey, Glory, Gerald, Carlton, Benani, Esther, Nav, ChanHoMing, Sis.....
    Thx for the surprise party, reli surprised, reli touched, reli cried.
    Thx for the cake and the present, thx for the wishes, thx for the card, thx for the wallet......

    THX


Thursday, 17 April 2008

  • Who am I? Have you ever asked yourself this question? Have you ever heard from anyone telling you who u are? "You are a horrible man." I got the reply yesterday. "Coz, I dun koe which one is the real Tse Chun Yin." A man with lotz of characters will make the others feel weird and afraid. " Are you A, B or C Jenkin now?" "Do you even koe which one you feel like pleasant?" Jenkin Tse Chun Yin, who is a guy that will behave so differently in font of diff people. He will react ficerely in fron tof his old high skool friends, but will be so silent in his room. He will be so gag in front of different friends, but will be damn serious if needed in front of individual. He is a man, a man who don't even koe his true mind. " Sometimes you will be so quiet, it seems to be something bad happening," "Sometimes you will be so high, which seems that u are covering your true feeling." I need time to be alone and be quiet, coz i like thinking, keep thinking of the past that can never be replaced, and can never be forgotten. It is simple, he always needs time to be alone. Walking into the wild for hours, drinking the cup of coffee in the sunset, wandering in the bushes made him think. He used to learn from the past for his future, he used his past ideas to face whatever challenging. He is still positive, still reli helpful, but he never said he is a good guy. Nobody is good in his mind, coz we are sinful. He hasn't been seeing a nearly perfect individuals for years already. He found everyone irresponsible, including himself. He found everyone disappointing, including his own soul. Nobody seems to be praised in his own idea, coz individuals are fake in characters. U will koe his appearance, u find that u seems to be koeing him, but izzit the truth? Izzit worthy to believe it? No. We are changing, we are changing, we are changing. Where is our limit? Will you break your limit becoz of your interest? Becoz of wealth, becoz of Love? You hate someone who smokes, but how do u make sure u will reject when you are under temptations? Make yourself a limit, and the limit will only make yourslef please. It will only u think that u are a good guy, a mature one. When you break your own promise, you will say," Only once!" Childish, unbelieveable and stupid. Human stupidity, wt a big topic. Why are you walking your own steps? Are you affected? By somebody? By friends? By Lovers? By family? Why will a talented math kid will tun out to sell T in Mongkok? All becoz of friends, they are bringing you to the point. Why will you let go of your family even if u koe they need father love? All becoz of a woman outside, a woman will makes you feel physically pleased and excited. Human used to depend on his own physical feelings, as mental thoughts will usually give its effects when you have your physical ideas.
    Human, what a naive group.
    Earth, what a patient habitat.
    God, what a game maker.

Tuesday, 15 April 2008

  • u koe wt, i miss my brothers. Staying in the place for the months made me feel frustrated. Friends here are definitely so diff with the ones in lsc, and the ones outside. In the past, i am definitely not the one who speak the most, bullying each other makes life fun and simple. There is no burden between us and nothing will change the friend group. Yelling, crunching and fooling around, still remember the days? I guess my friends will be perfectly fine to make new group and new friends, but it's different. Nobody can replace u guys, nothing can turn us around. Whenever I feel sad in the past, the first one I will call was Kev. Every weekend when we got lunchtime, Fruit and Berry will be visiting and we used to spend the time on the TV while taking instant noodles. In class, whenever i wanna fool around, I would go and blow water wid Jacky, Siusiu and Vincent. Whenever I found it difficult to share my feeling, i will tell chanhoiming. Whenever I got new songs to compose, Jacky would be wid me. Billy and Tai would have their magic cards wid them always. Playing winning eleven in the study room became a practise wid Aaron my bro and the french bois. Wong Chi Yin would always be wid me in msn, a conversation of everything. Johnny, the guy who would difinitely find me when he was bak from uk. Sunny, time crisis, and the tea we have once had in kwn city. Fat Peng, Andy, the taiwan trip gangs and the bar gangs. How can i ever forget. The party wid Kala, the sms wid Marco, the chat wid Kam and all these......These are memories, and it will never come back. Here what i get is a new life, new friends, and maybe new best friends. However, it seems that the old ones will never be replaced, coz we got diff memories. Friends here will never volka intaking with me, friends are not football gangsters, friends here koe nothing about my past. Noone will be replaced, u are who u are.

    recently visit kev and fruit's xanga, find that i have not visited u guys xanga for such long already. Time for me to keep in touch wid u guys again. For berry, i think it's my chance to call u to DISCUSS something about Arsenal. Friends, wt a nice term. Wt a disappointing body, wt a lovely individual.